…. and so it continues

My mood is going further down and the periods when I feel happier are much shorter. The slightest thing darkens my day although it’s probably too many little things that have built up over the years that have cummulated to be a big deal now. Things such as ….

• being constantly talked over
• constantly being interrupted
• the constant talking when I am doing absolutely anything including dealing with the important stuff in life
• the constant repetitice teasing which got boring years ago
• getting the blame for things that are beyond my control
• constantly having to listen to one person’s prblems and hurts yet when I try to get support I’m ignored or it causes a row because I’m a woman / women cope better / nothing is worse that what this person is going through

The list could go on but the reality is I’m getting emotionally put down and getting to the point of sealing my shell with me insidr in it. Aftr all the years of hard work on my part to build up my self confidence, self esteem and trust are being smashed to pieces again.