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Not such a good break

Last Monday we went to Ayr for a short break but it ended up being stressful. When we got to the caravan the key wasn’t inside so we had to go to the reception. The receptionist we spoke to wasn’t exactly the most helpful or polite one we have ever met. We were given a key fairly quickly but while we were waiting another customer was complaining to another receptionist. She had arrived an hour earlier and was still waiting for a key. She even said at one point she couldn’t believe there wasn’t one key anywhere on the site for the caravan.

We got back to our caravan to eat and relax as we were tired. The next morning we went out and found out that it was the wrong key so went back to reception only to be told they couldn’t guarantee when we would get the right key. By this time we were getting irritated to the point I said our holiday had already been ruined by the attitude there. We found out later there were several new members of staff and there had been numerous complaints. We’ve been there before but without any hassles but decided to go out anyway.

Returning back to the site the key had been given to security for us. It was a relief the ‘new’ key actually fitted. I was still fed up and my mood worsening.

On Thursday we went to the Isle of Arran having bought the ferry ticket the day before. Arriving at Troon we found the ferry had been cancelled and had to go to Ardrossan, fortunately we had enough time to get there. We then found out on the journey that ferries were being cancelled due to severe weather warnings and to go back on a return journey after getting off the ferry. There was no room to do the return journey so we had about an hour on the island. This meant getting a coffee each then waiting in the car,

Due to the weather warning we came home Thursday instead of Friday. It was just as well as the weather was already getting bad at home. It doesn’t feel like we’ve been away and it’s one holiday I want to forget.

My mood hasn’t improved – it’s got worse – and it’s hard to put on a happy face at the moment. I haven’t slept well for over a week now so it was a good excuse to use this morning before the parent / carer and toddler group.

Mood not great

Well the second lockdown is finally over but most of the country seems to be in tier 3 or 2 – we’re in tier 3 – so it doesn’t feel like much has changed. I was at church this morning even though I had to motivate myself to go. It was good to see people I haven’t seen for a while.

One potential light at the end of the tunnel is that we may be able to have Christmas dinner at Tindale Crossing as usual. We will know for definite on the 16th December – it’s nice for me as I don’t have to spend so much time in the kitchen. Being waited on is an added bonus.

Lately it’s been bothering me that I have suffered sleep paralysis a few times. I didn’t even know that I had suffered it until I googled a film and read on wikipedia what it was about. Up until then I thought I had had some vivid dreams of not being able to move or speak. Now I know what’s really happened I know if it happens regularly I should ring up my GP surgery. It’s a very scary experience to go through

Too good to be true?

We have had to put up with an idiot neighbour for a few months due to him accusing us of different things. Apparantly we have 10 cats when in reality we have 2 1/2 – one has two homes as one of her sisters lives across the road hence the 1/2 – my husband is a wife beater and a couple of other things. The ‘screams’ he’s heard have been when I have fallen and yelled out for help getting up or when I’ve yelled at our dogs as one was ill so could be aggressive at times. She has since passed on and our other dog has calmed down.

Since then the neighbour as claimed our dog barks 24/7 which isn’t true because we wouldn’t put up with it. When we leave him to go shopping or the health club. Our friend, who is owned by our eldest cat’s sister, will sit with him for 10 minutes so we can slip out or sometimes till we get home. If our dog does bark our friend will check to see if there is a reason but our dog doesn’t bark continuously even then. We suspect the idiot neighbour upsets him by walking past our home but we can’t prove.

The neighbour has threatened my husband then had the cheek to ring the police and claimed he was threatened. On that day he hurled abuse at me after the call as I had gone to our car to get a mobile. What he didn’t know was I had set my mobile to record so when the police came out we were able to prove this. The police weren’t impressed that he had made a claim then was abusive towards me after his phone call.

Right from the first incident the neighbour has been parking his van where we normally park up just to annoy us. He’s has filmed us going from our car to our home, been very noisy and has been spying on us so when we’ve gone out into the garden or come home from an outing he will stand at his gate staring at us until we go in.

A few days ago his van went so we have been able to park up where we have wanted to and he has stopped his bad behaviour. I’m not completely convinced that he’s seen sense that his behaviour has been bad. It could be true or it could be because he has cancer. One of our immediate neighbours recently died due to cancer, yet, he was a lovely neighbour.

I’m still struggling with depression but I am getting there slowly with being motivated.